This week I am saying good-bye to all of my Tunisian friends and preparing to go to Lesvos, Greece for two months. I let go of my apartment, and I honestly don't know where I will be living next year.
My eleven year old clown friend, Ameni, aka Chuku Chuka, wanted to clown with me before I left Tunisia. I want to help her as much as I can, but I wasn't thrilled about unpacking my suitcase and getting my clown supplies out.
To be honest, this has been a very difficult and stressful time for me. Crying with friends about leaving (and other life situations) for the past few days, I didn't know if I would even be able to get to Chahloula. Truly, clowning with Ameni was a blessing! I let go of all the thoughts in my mind and enjoyed the freedom of becoming Chahloula. I was able to maintain the peace and joy even after removing the makeup.
Oh! And the pleasure of working with a new clown! I will never forget performing with her and watching her experience the audience's reactions! This small audience was great. Very enthusiastic!
I have given Ameni many clown supplies, tricks, and make-up. She is eager to learn and willing to practice. I made it clear to her that the things I gave her were not toys; they are clown props (and expensive).
Chuku Chuka did most of her own make-up, applying hers while I did mine. Her older sister helped us throughout the show at a neighborhood day care center. (I had never been to this one before. Kind of sad that they met me as I am leaving Tunisia!) I don't have my daughter or husband with me, so her sister was also our photographer.
I don't know if getting into costume and makeup will set everyone free from their struggles in the real world, but it sure worked for me. The worst time to clown might actually be the right time. I received a revelation about having the 'mind of Christ'; I can choose at any time to live from the mind of Christ and let go of all the worries in my mind, enjoying the peace, love, joy, and truth that is available to me in Christ.
Chahloula is a part of my life, but Christ IS my life.